Faded

A shadow of my former self I lost me over the years

Been busy being too busy

Getting my self worth in serving

Parts of my soul... I was fading

Little left when I stopped

Hit the brakes

No more being tough

Thinking I may not deserve what I already have

Maybe I wasn't the best mom I could be

Not deserving...

Was I full of myself, pushing people away

Or was I suffering silently, not a word to say

The the glass overflowed

There was no turning back

Me first was the only solution

Need to peel away the layers of 'I do not deserve'

Years piling up on self doubt

No other answer, of myself, my cast I want out

When I see the letters forming about how I felt

It's saddening I did not know my worth

It was my vision that was blurred

They'd be disappointed if my inner feelings they had heard

I rebuild and recreate myself

Not the worker, mother, wife

My new life

Taking over slowly, new destination reborn motivation